How I Plan to Start My Day.

I began my day before the sun rose and in all honesty I am feeling pretty sickly. So I decided to repeat these two statements to myself:

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I figured even if I didn’t necessarily believe them to be true at the exact moment I said them to myself, maybe if I said them enough times they would stick…surprisingly I am feeling a little better about myself already 🙂

 

 I have also decided to follow these steps to ensure that my day brightens up even though I am not feeling my best,

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I also am telling myself just how awesome it is that I got up early because, as this coffee cup best puts it,

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Have a happy day ❤

Make an Epic Wish Today!

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Today is November 11th (aka 11/11) so I truly believe that today, when the clock strikes 11:11 (am or pm…you’ve even got two chances haha) your wish has a really strong chance of coming true! Don’t forget to make your wish and I hope it comes true for you!

Here are a few things I might wish for…I can’t tell you, which one I choose though or else it won’t come true 🙂

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I wish to truly believe this and focus on today.

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I wish to keep changing for the good so I can be healthier and happier.

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I could wish for this prada bag…it’s amazebalz or

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Happy Weekend!

Congrats all! We’ve survived the week and made it to the weekend. Cheers to the next few days and remember to only:

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And to all my fellow college students (and recent grads <3) it’s time to for us to be:

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“67 Things I Wish I Had Known at 18″…or in my case know now at 23…

Yesterday my sister and I received a facebook message from our dad, which contained an article entitled “67 Things I Wish I Had Known at 18.” The fact that my dad had come across this post, which originated from totalfratmove.com literally caused me to laugh out loud, but I guess at the end of the day you can take the guy out of the frat, but you can’t take the frat out of the guy. Stevie will always be a Phi Delta Theta at heart 🙂

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I decided to blog about this list because I found that even though it is vast and extensive each fact succeeds in making its point through strong and concise wording. Most of these statements are actually so simple that all of us, young women, can associate them, in some capacity, with our own personal experiences. I think this is crucial because although most of us young women deal with the same surface issues: ex-boyfriends, academic stress, low self-esteem, uncertainty surrounding our futures, etc., at the end of the day we, as young women, all have our own stories. We are all individuals so it is up to us, solo, to read this list and apply it however we see it to fit best within our OWN lives. Some of these points we might have already conquered and now they ring true, others we are fighting for, and a few we might see as unattainable, whatever the case may be it is important that we recognize that we are not alone and every young women our age has struggled, as well as succeeded, at some point. We need to remind ourselves that this list pertains to all of our journeys in some way. We are all works in progress, I mean come on that’s what our twenties are for right…figuring it all out? So my only critique of this article is the title…there are so many things on this list that I, at 23, am still working towards, so lets not limit it to our teen years and focus more on how it can help now… in our amazing 20s!

Here are a few (or 8 haha) of the points that stood out most to me:

4. Love yourself. Sometimes you’re all you have.

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We all must focus on our true awesomeness.

11. Classes can be retaken. Life cannot.

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I, personally, would not trade the year I took off from college for anything. I learned so much about myself and grew tremendously.

17. No one is perfect. Stop being so hard on yourself.

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Everyone has their shit. We all have to deal, but the most important thing is that we do deal with it, no matter how much we are hurting.

25. Ignorance is not bliss. Study. Work hard.

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Be educated. It really is crucial ladies.

40. It’s okay to ask for help.

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Those who matter want to help you. Don’t hesitate to reach out to them. They will always be there for you through thick and thin.

48. Confidence is everything.

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Enough said.

64. You will fall, both literally and figuratively. Get back up.

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Love this.

65. Tequila is a bad idea, as is getting back together with an ex.

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Had to include this for you Kate. It just made me smile. Love you.

Here’s the link to the article. Check it out: http://www.totalfratmove.com/67-things-i-wish-i-had-known-at-18-3/

Thank goodness I’m charming

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I love this quote. I believe that it emphasizes that personality, specifically one’s charm, is a more significant, as well as desired trait, than the unrealistic physical beauty standards our society has created. By putting greater focus on one’s inner beauty, and characteristics such as charm,  individuals  become more well rounded and, for lack of a better word, “beautiful” people. Charm, in particular, is a trait that I recognize with and have found to be a defining attribute in my life. You can get pretty far with a charming personality…if you know how to use it no one can resist you 🙂 At times when I feel like I have never looked worse in my life I have learned to put on a smile and exude some of my natural charm. As a result of this others usually respond well to me and are attracted to my positive attitude. I need to remind myself of this and focus on the fact that my inner beauty is far more important than my physical beauty.

“Fall Back”…not this time.

I must begin this post with an apology for the hiatus I have taken from my blog. I am just now realizing how important it is to write out my feelings so that I can continue to move forward in the right direction. Only now am I understanding just how therapeutic and beneficial blogging is as an outlet in my road to recovery. From this day forward I am making a promise to myself that I will be more engaged with my blog and use it to heal myself.

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So here it goes:

As daylights savings came and went this past Sunday I reflected on how, at this point in the year, time essentially “falls back.” We are blessed with an extra hour of sleep, along with sunshine when we raise, but we must compromise by accepting that the darkness of the night begins to encompass the sky as soon as classes end for the day at 4:00pm. I really could not help, but think about how this concept of “falling back” relates to my own experiences, thus far, at Bowdoin. “Falling back” is what I have arduously fought against these past few months….whether it be in regard to old unhealthy habits that developed when I was last on campus, or whether it’s fighting against the negative thoughts and body consciousness’ that can consume my mind. I am continuously fighting (every second of every day) to keep moving forward in my recovery. This was true for a while at least, but I can’t lie I have recently been coasting…I allowed myself to get away with some bad behaviors I had practiced, in the past, because I told myself that it wasn’t the end of the world since I was abiding by the other “rules” in my contract for recovery. However, I came to learn, obviously the hard way, that by allowing myself to “fall back” in one aspect of my recovery opened up a whole can of worms… I eventually found myself beginning to compromise and accept other behaviors. Finally, last week, I noticed a huge slip was occurring and my recovery progress was in danger of being compromised. My initial reaction to my awareness that I was losing control over my own recovery was that of outright fear. I’m essentially on my own at school and the last thing I want to do is worry my family or friends. They have done enough worrying over the past year and a half and if I can spare them from any extra stress, regarding me, I am going to find a way to do that. So I eventually came to terms with the fact that I needed to do something to regain control. After hibernating in my room and crying in my bed, at several different periods of time this past weekend, I figured out what had to be done. I needed to reach out to the professionals I trust and tell them exactly what is going on. I succeeded in doing this and by simply exchanging a few emails with my therapist and getting out exactly what was going on with me, I felt better. Another thing that I need to do, which is crucial, but definitely no easy feat, is to regain some hope in my recovery. I have to remind myself that I don’t have the option to simply “fall back.” I’ve worked too hard to get to where I am today and I don’t want to give it all up. As Winnie the Pooh so eloquently puts it:

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