Pamper Yourself.

I literally can not contain my excitement…today I’m getting my hair done!!! Marvelheads, my hair salon, is honestly one of my favorite places. I’ve gone to Ellen, my hairdresser, since I can remember and she is the BEST. In fact my mom has been seeing Ellen since she was pregnant with my sister and I!  The salon is such a warm and comfortable environment (plus the women who work there are amazing) and every time I leave I feel better.

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Going there is kind of like a form of therapy. I mean every girl, including myself, obviously loves to be pampered and beautified.  Getting a cut and color can be just the right amount of change that is necessary to boost your confidence. It certainly aided me in my time of need.

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This summer is when I decided that it was time to do something different with my hair. Since I had such a rough spring/summer I believed that the timing for a change was finally right, and it was now or never. So I concluded that it was time to chop off my hair! I had thought about cutting my hair short for awhile, but never had the guts to do it.  As I’ve mentioned before I’m a little anxious and don’t adjust well to change so…I always ended up talking myself out of getting a new do.  So when I finally decided, hey why not just do it, it was one of the best choices I’ve ever made.  Afterwards I just felt so light and fresh, almost like a new person.

Before:

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Sorry about the sass, but I thought this pic really shows how long my hair was!

After:

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Short and sweet!

Here are some looks that inspired me to chop off my locks:

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How adorbs is LC?

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LOVE the color

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Perfect length

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Thinking of asking if I can go this blonde… another change! Fingers crossed!

I’ll keep you all posted on how it turns out 😉

All <3 is Equal. fact.

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This week the Supreme Court will hear two cases arguing for appeals to current state, and federal, laws, which forbid same-sex marriage.  Personally, I think it is utterly inhumane that this injustice, towards the LGBT population in our country, still exists.  The fact that contributing members, within our society, are prohibited from marrying whomever they love, because of their sexuality, is for lack of better words, pretty RIDICULOUS. Seriously, what is the harm in letting two individuals declare a commitment to one another by participating in the institution of marriage? It’s simple, there is none.  There is no harm in, or even more importantly facts, which support the notion that same-sex couples should be barred from marrying. In fact, the American Academy of Pediatrics has recently, publicly, declared its support for gay marriage by stating “same-sex marriage helps guarantee rights, benefits and long-term security for children.” (http://www.nytimes.com/2013/03/21/health/american-academy-of-pediatrics-backs-gay-marriage.html?_r=0) Legalizing same-sex marriage is not only the right thing to do for families with same-sex parents, but it is also the best thing to do for our society as a whole. So let’s all hope that the Supreme Court gets it right this week and that they vote in favor of finally abolishing this injustice, and moving forward, from this point on, every individual will now be guaranteed the right to marry, regardless of their sexuality. I never intended to state my political views on this blog, but I am passionate about marriage equality because it affects quite a few people who I hold dear to my heart. It pains me to see that their rights, as U.S. citizens, are limited because they are such amazing and remarkable people who are only asking to marry the person they love, and therefore gain the rights bestowed upon all married couples. Their love deserves to be recognized by this country we live in, the U.S.A, that is supposedly so “free”, just as much as mine does. How can someone determine, based on sexuality, that one person’s love is more legitimate than another’s? They can’t.

spring fever?

Unfortunately I’m currently under the weather and am only getting to posting, now, because  I’ve finally emerged from a “NyQuil Fog.” But, seriously…I don’t know what it is, but NyQuil and I do not work well together in long term situations. It’s great when I need it to knock me into a deep slumber, but post-use I am literally a zombie for the next 24 hours. I could not function so it was a pretty lazy day for me.

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I wish I looked this cute while I was taking it easy…def not the case

The hardest part for me, when it comes to being sick, is that I feel SO useless. I can’t complete most of my day to day routines and I end up just wallowing on the couch… or in my bed…My productivity level is at a zero and it annoys me like nobody’s business!  So today I was feeling pretty awful for most of the day and just couldn’t shake my NyQuil haze, and actually didn’t try to push myself too hard. I took it easy, even though it pained me not to do anything, (I was SO bored), and in all honesty by late afternoon I felt a lot better.  Most importantly though, I began to feel more like myself. The clouds cleared up and I felt more like a real human again. So what I learned today is that:

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Sometimes just listening to your body, not necessarily your mind (the fog complicates everything), is the best medicine.  “It’s okay not to be okay” as long as you recognize that it is temporary and WILL get better 🙂 You don’t always have to be on your A game. You are human and you will have bad days. You will have days when you are not okay. But let the good days outweigh the bad ones and eventually, sooner than you think, you’ll be okay.

icecream sunday

It doesn’t matter whether it’s winter, spring, summer, or fall I am ALWAYS in the mood for ice-cream. At school the dining halls have Sunday sundae bars, which were hands down my fav day of the week.  I would often end up replacing my meals for a sundae, which I now know was not a good idea, but at the time I was just happy to actually be enjoying what I was eating. Since then I no longer replace meals with ice-cream (and when I say ice-cream I mean frozen yogurt or soft serve…), but often enjoy it as an evening snack. Right now it is still really tough for me to actually admit that I like what I am eating, and to not feel guilty about it, so it’s always refreshing to have a bowl of ice-cream and be able to say that I loved how it tasted. Hopefully, soon, the overwhelming guilt I have when I eat most foods will disappear, and I will feel just as comfortable eating a larger variety of foods, as I do when I have an ice-cream sundae! Here are a few of my personal fav flavors:

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Coffee

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Black Rasperry

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Vanilla Soft Serve w/ Sprinkles

YUM!

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The one year mark, from when I first realized that I might have an eating disorder, is quickly approaching. It’s still hard for me to believe everything that I have gone through over the past year, and when I really start thinking about all my hardships, I get overwhelmed with a multitude of emotions. I’m angry and sad that I have had to put my life on hold, but I am also grateful that I am learning to cope with my feelings and to love myself.  So my goal for this weekend it to remind myself just how far I have come, in the past year, from that sick and confused girl to a strong young woman fighting her disease.

Librarian/Bookworm Chic

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So I’m the first to admit that I’m a lil bit nerdy.  I’ve always loved reading and take my school work VERY seriously. When I was away at college you could always find me holed up in the basement of the library, hard at work, burrowed in between shelves, and shelves, of books (shout out to the E90s).  I don’t know if it was the smell of the books or something else, but I just loved how by simply being present in the library I felt more like an academic. Honestly, I believe that my constant presence, as well as general comfort, in the library, has significantly affected multiple facets of my life.  From my personal style, to the spaces where I feel most “safe/happy” illustrate just how my “bookworm” persona has evolved and transformed me into the young woman I am today.

Here are a few rooms where I would love to cuddle up in:

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I’ve also learned that I often lean towards dressing the part of a bookworm. The most important part, however, in terms of my library style is comfort. When you are spending such long periods of time amongst the books you need to feel confidant and self-assured in your clothes, and skin.  Here are a few of my nerdy-chic must haves:

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Comfy Sweaters

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Distressed Denim

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Cableknits

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Nerdy Glasses and Striped Tees

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Oversized turtlenecks

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Here are two of my own bookworm inspired looks (I’m currently really digging the oversized grandma cardi, it’s very conducive to the current freezing temps):

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Calypso-Celle Tee

Anthropologie Sweater

Hudson Collin Skinny Jeans

Tory Burch Boots

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Jcrew Button Up

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Hudson Bootcut Jeans

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Sans glasses

There’s nothing wrong with being a lil bit of a nerdy bookworm. Even Gwyneth Paltrow is one 😉

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Spring has Sprung…Kinda

It’s hard to believe that today is officially the first day of spring, considering that it is thirty-six degrees outside and that we had a pretty significant snowstorm yesterday, but hey we do live in New England so you have to expect the unexpected when it comes to the weather… Still, I’m just itching to feel the warm sun on my face and to :

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and also for the flowers to start blooming:

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love. love. love. hydrangeas

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a wreath of tulips is a great way to welcome spring

and to wear outfits like these:

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head-to-toe mint

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coral galore

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casual, but still classic, whites

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nothing says spring like a colorful, textured-floral, mini

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cobalt maxi with simple white-tee…amaze.

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gorgeous cut out pink fabric and wooden soled high heels

Unfortunately, I don’t think that I’ll be trading in my parka and ugg boots for these outfits and accessories any time soon, but a girl can dream right? I’ve just got to keep reminding myself, regardless of the cold that it is time to:

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a good cry.

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Some days are just harder than others.

Every once in a while you need to rid yourself of toxic and negative emotions by allowing yourself a good cry.

Afterwords remind yourself that:

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And  hopefully, post-cry, you will be prepared to fight to regain control over the rest of your day.

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